okay so basically i woke up hella late today, checked my phone and had like 3 missed calls from people i had important business with asking to meet up 1 hour before i had even waken up, i get anxious af because ‘what the frick am i supposed to do now, i don’t even have stuff done yet and i’m tired af’. and what do i do instead of calling them back and explaining the situation like any normal person would do? i ignore my phone all day and keep sleeping, completely ignoring reality and pretending like nothing happened at all, then spend the rest of the day wondering what the f i’m going to tell them tomorrow to make things right, still ignoring my phone, i probably have like 20 missed calls by now but i just can’t get myself to call them. i have no idea how i am going to become a responsible adult like this, this stupid anxiety sh*t basically rules my life. i’m so damn depressed and tired today, what am i even doing with my life srsly, i can’t just ignore reality like this. and yet here i am sigh